Monday, March 28, 2005
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Sunday, March 27, 2005
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Life Unscripted. This is going to be my new home. I am not done. I'm not sure if I like the pink. I'm tired....I've been working on this thing for six hours. It took me awhile since the babies were nuts tonight.
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Friday, March 25, 2005
Living up to one's name........
I took all four kids for a half mile walk today.......by MYSELF.
Observation....Megan likes dolls. Sebastian is very close to having his toungue ripped out and be beaten with it. Colby has severe temper tantrums. For once Patrick is behaving fairly well!
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Megan's two new names:
Princess of WAILS! and Her Royal Chubiness!
*chirp*
Okay. I think it's cute. *rasberries*
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Monday, March 21, 2005
The job interview went really well! They may be calling me to set up a second interview. Pray......
Posted at 05:15 pm by jennis1125
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And the award goes to.......
Why is that my husband thinks he should get an award for getting up with Megan in the middle of the night? I've been doing it for almost five months. I don't see anyone patting me on the back! No. He also acts like it's a big deal he's been doing most of the housework. Yeah, it's nice but I've been doing it on my own for almost two years. It won't kill him to do a little more and give a break.
Enough of that. Colby had 103 temp last night so I made an appointment with the doc to see what was up. Kris had to bring him. I hope he is okay. Last night he was barely moving and it freaked me out. I decided to call the ER and ask. The ER nurse said to give him motrin and tylenol and see if that works. It did but he's still not eating and has been pretty sleepy.
Now I have to go out and look for a job. I just don't see it happening with me not working for the last two years. I just got off the phone with someone that was very turned off by the screaming child in the background. Like being a mother automatically handicapps you. Yes, I had a child and then my brain exploded. I am qualified to change diapers, clean up puke, cook, clean, do various levels of reading and writing, mediate, budget, time management, discipline, and anything else that involves children. Work? No, I don't think I can do that. Managing four kids on a daily basis is as easy as pie. I can do it with my hands behing my back. (because they tied me up to get to the sweets!) Talking to adults and problem solving no I don't think I can do that!
Wish me luck. I think Megan is pooping. I keep hearing these little toots and she's fairly red. Oh, she sat up yesterday and she get up on her chubby little knees. She doesn't get you have lean on your hands but she's way ahead of the game so far! ; ) She babbles. Yesterday, I begged her to be quiet because she "talked" for three hours. Right now she's blowing bubbles. I have to say my daughter is a looker. She flashes that smile at you and oh my god! My camera broke again so I don't have pictures yet but I am thinking of buying a normal camera. Not a digital. It was nice but it was more of a pain.
Here I go. To make a huge fool of myself.
BTW Happy Spring! Yesterday it was official!
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Friday, March 11, 2005
I am going to change Megan's name to screaming meme. Any objections?
Going to go play Sims 2 even though I have no idea what the hell I'm doing!
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Thursday, March 10, 2005
Pat's school conference was today. He's doing well. She said he could start kindergarten next year or we could hold him an extra year in preschool. Justin was fifteen minutes late. Mind you the confrence is only fifteen minutes! Lucky for him the other parents were late. He's such an ass. I don't understand how he gets through life like that. Then when I tried to explain to his Royal Ass what the teacher said he tried to argue with me! I was there wouldn't I know what was said. (I don't say this stuff in front of Pat so don't comment!)
She said Pat is doing great. He is very polite. He handles transitions very well. He doesn't hit or push the other kids. He leads more than he follows. The kids draw to him. I'm not suprised because people have always drawn to him. Even when he was baby they would stop and stare. I thought it was normal but after I had Colby I noticed it wasn't so normal. When I mean stopped and stared, I mean oogled him and was amazed by him. They still do. He's not your average person. There's something about him. You'd have to meet him to understand. Anyway, she said he is very immaginative and artistic. He is also showing signs of wanting to read! Woo-hoo!
Megan is still screaming like someone is killing her cat. Today she has only cried when she is hungry or tired. I've also been home so she's being fed the way she likes and rocked to sleep. Yesterday I wanted to give her little ass up for adoption. She cried from 5 until 8 then she ate and went to sleep until midnight! She has been smiling and laughing alot more.
Sebastian is playing games with his homework and I've had to stay on his ass to get him to do all his homework. Who knows what his problems is. He is now in an afterschool program to improve his reading and writing. The other day he explained to me that he didn't need to learn how to read and write because he doesn't want to be an author. Yes, he has the world by the balls doesn't he. I nicely explained to him that everyone reads and writes and it's a part of everyday life.
Colby has discovered books. He brings them to me and we read the same book and talk about the pictures. He also loves his shape sorter. Over and over. It's cool because Pat never played with his. Once he figured out how to open it he lost interest. He's also talking and following direction much better.
This post was suppossed to be about how we plot out our lives and it never turns out the way we planned. Diner-bitch sent me an email and it basically reflected alot of how I feel. Out of place. Like I've wasted a good part of my life on nothing. Why? Why is that I feel like a failure? I haven't accomplished any of my goals. I keep being pulled away from my dreams. Life keeps getting in the way. I just wanted to say to Dar that she's not alone. I think we all feel that way at times. I wish I could accomplish at least one of my goals before I die. Even if it just is going to Aruba!
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Monday, March 07, 2005
I will give updates after the screaming meme moves out in 18 years but the jist of it is I get Pat. If Justin wants Pat to go to a Catholic school he pays. Not me. He he. He paid $7500 to fuck himself. Ha ha. Okay must go pull my hair out.
Baby for sale...anyone interested. ; )
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Friday, March 04, 2005
The day is fastly approaching where I will be told whether or not I am worthy enough to raise my son. I'm so scared. I have valid reasons. Here's one more.....I called Justin and told him that Pat's confrences are next Thursday. I received a laundry list of reasons why he couldn't go. Yean, and he's going to take care of his education.
I don't know what to say to the judge. It's so hard gathering my thoughts. The spin like a merry-go-round. I can't make sense of it. I know I'm better fit to care for Pat. That's obvious just by listening to Justin talk. He talks more about himself then Pat. When I talk about Pat I talk about Pat. Not how I was. It also shows because even with the smallest things I request I get resistance. The confrences really pissed me off because he can go. It's a fifteen minute conference at 9:30 in the morning. He doesn't have to work until 10 and he can say he's going to be an hour late! Yeah, he can put clothes on his back but can he, does he have the time to, teach Pat how to be a good person. How to be respectful and honest. Is he going to teach him that an education is the only thing that is truly yours. That noone can take that away from you. The more educated you are the more chances you have at a good life. Is that narccisstic asshole going to teach him that.
Who cares right. It's out of my hands. All I can do is my best. I'm just feeling so low. So beaten. It could be so much worse. Don't whine right. What ever will be will be.
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